End of Transmission

I decided about a month ago that this would be my last entry on “Notes from Russ.”  Everything that has a beginning has an end, and I feel that right now I want to utilize my energies for other endeavors.  Since I made this choice to stop posting my “notes” on my good friend Rett’s website, I’ve been trying to think of just the perfect thing to say.  Many ideas have floated through my head recently, and it’s been difficult attempting to pinpoint the right ones.  Well, tonight is the time to write something, whether or not it comes out the way I want it to…

I appreciate all of you readers who took the time to read (or at least skim) through these notes from me.  Who knew that a notepad I got from when I was a kid in school would come to be the inspiration for a creative writing venture…or as my brother would say, another one of those trendy blogs.

We are definitely living in interesting times, don’t you think?  It’s very exciting to be a part of these changes that we’re going through.  We’re not in Kansas City anymore, am I right, Toto?  I will bid you adieu with these words:  Life is but a dream, albeit a persistent one.  If you’re reading this now, then odds are you’re stuck in the time loop with the rest of us.  Welcome to the tea party.  I guess the obvious question you might have at this point is: what are you here to do?  I would say that a paradox exists between the notion that we go through life attempting to wake up to this illusion called “reality” and simultaneously the idea that we are passing through time is an illusion itself.  So where does that leave us?  Does that paradox really tell us anything at all?  I mean, why should we attempt to do or change anything if everything isn’t “real” as we might think?  We are stuck in a prison, thinking we’re free, while at the same time not realizing that the prison door was unlocked the whole time.  Ultimately, we act because we are.  You are here, so what will you do?  I suppose the better question might be, not what you will do, but who are you?

Everything that has an end has a beginning…


  1. Russ, I for one have enjoyed your writings as a counterpoint to the status quo. This last post seems to have a hint of Descartes’ modern philosophy which I haven’t noticed previously. Are you ending your conspiracy theory writing to spend more time on philosophy?

    - Josh (Jun 12, 2007)

  2. Russ, do you think you would have been the same person if you never saw the matrix?

    - Andrew (Jun 13, 2007)

  3. You had me at hello….

    Nevermind. Can’t find a hello!

    Keep on your quest for answers, if you build it, they will come..

    - Nickie (Jun 14, 2007)

  4. As you can tell in this post, I’m partly paying homage to the Matrix trilogy. Those three films have definitely been a big inspiration in my life. They contain many spiritual/philosophical ideas that I’ve spent much time contemplating. I think most people don’t realize how much that trilogy is truly “ahead of its time.” I admire how well the storyline is enmeshed with rich and complex concepts to which I still wonder what most of the content really means. It’s a living, breathing piece of art that is constantly evolving and always open for interpretation. And it’s brilliantly displayed in an entertaining movie format!

    So, yes, I included very obvious references and quotes from the Matrix trilogy. I want to add that I believe one of the most important concepts within the Matrix comes at the very end of the third film when Neo tells Smith that he (Smith) was always right and then Neo allows Smith to imprint his code into him. My interpretation of this critical moment in the Matrix’s storyline is that it’s a metaphoric representation describing the death of the illusion of the separate self. In other words, Neo has the realization of his eternity within and finds unity in a world of seemingly apparent duality.

    Even though the Matrix has been quite influential in my personal mindscapes, there have been many other contributors to my mental jewelry. Ken Wilber, Stuart Wilder, David Icke, the Enneagram; just to name a tiny few. As far as Descartes goes…I’m familiar with some of his work, although I read on wikipedia that aside from his other more commendable contributions to philosophy, he practiced vivisection, which consisted of dissecting fully live, conscious animals…I find vivisection to be quite ridiculous and deplorable.

    P.S. I appreciate your comment Nickie. You complete me.

    - Russ (Jun 18, 2007)

  5. “My interpretation of this critical moment in the Matrix’s storyline is that it’s a metaphoric representation describing the death of the illusion of the separate self. In other words, Neo has the realization of his eternity within and finds unity in a world of seemingly apparent duality.”

    That is way beyond my concept of understanding. I am a moron.

    - Andrew (Jun 19, 2007)

  6. I’ve been following your posts for a while now, and I’d have to say I’m a bit disappointed that you are ending your “Notes.” Are you abandoning the 9/11 truth movement? You were just getting good. Oh well, I guess people have to move on. I just hope that you continue on with spreading the word about the 9/11 cover-up in some form or another because every voice counts.

    To me it can be just a flip of the mind to be able to see what you couldn’t perceive before. You know, like a subliminal message that you never noticed, but once someone points it out, you’ll always be able to see the hidden information…hidden in plain view. In regard to the 9/11 attacks, all you have to do is realize that the pulverized concrete dust clouds that eminated from the towers as they collapsed had to be a result of some explosive element. Steel beams just don’t get shot out by gravity. You see?

    Well, if there is anyone out there who wants to continue to learn about 9/11 and get up-to-date coverage on this pressing issue, I will give a website address for you to check out. I frequent the site a lot to stay on top of some of the alternative news stories. Here’s the site:


    - Tom (Jun 20, 2007)

  7. I think my kid brah must be a little bit confused. You don’t understand the meaning of life? Try cracking open the B-I-B-L-E!! Every answer you need is in there.

    However, if you are still determined to ask these questions, I will attempt to offer some brotherly advice. Make as much money as you can; your goal is to live as far from poor people as possible. Once you acheive this, while racking up an enormous debt, you should make sure you own a big television and a fast car; you wouldn’t want anyone to think you can’t afford that house you just bought. You may be asking yourself, “I’ve acheived all that, now what?” That’s easy. Spend the rest of your life obsessing over how everyone’s values are wrong (aka different) and that they are the source of the world’s problems; all the while, ignoring the fact that you are raping the earth with all the ‘stuff’ you purchased on the way to self-fulfillment.

    I can see now why no one writes respones. You can hardly see what you are typing in this tiny ass box.

    - Brian Douglas (Jun 22, 2007)

  8. You know, whenever I’m in the mood for a long read and can’t make it to the library, I just settle down with “Notes from Russ.” But seriously, I’ll miss your long ramblings.

    One of these days you’ll have to explain the Matrix to me in elementary terms, because, as you know, I just don’t “get” it. Right now I’m reading a book by Emmett Fox, written about 75 years ago, and his writings seem to be a precursor to modern day spiritual writings, such as Conversations with God. But his are directly related to the Bible, and the way he explains the meanings behind the stories in the Bible amaze me… I would never in a million years gotten that out of it! I wonder if these “metaphysical’ ideas are closely related to The Matrix? We’ll have to compare notes one of these days.

    P.S. In response to Brian Douglas’ comment…. everything on earth belongs to God. You just THINK you own all those material goods.

    - ginger (Jun 22, 2007)

  9. First, I would like to apologize to all my fans for my poor grammar and misspellings—my trendy blog was written in a meth-induced rage.

    Second, God doesn’t own me, the Federal Reserve does (right, Russ—wink).

    Third, to quote the famous Dr. Seuss,

    “I do not like them in a box.
    I do not like them with a fox.
    I do not like them in a house.
    I do not like them with a mouse.
    I do not like them here or there.
    I do not like them anywhere.
    I do not like green eggs and ham.
    I do not like them, Sam-I-am.”

    …marinate on that one.

    - Brian Douglas (Jun 22, 2007)

  10. Russ, it’s been a great run, and I think if you were to read through all of your posts in a row you’d see that your writing has gotten better. Well at least shorter, jk.

    Brian, I actually lol’d when I read your comment about the tiny box. I’m such a lazy jerk for never making that bigger. Or maybe I just like knowing that I have the control.

    Some of the things you’ve brought up I agree with, some I really don’t know enough about, and some just went right over my head (make sure to invite me when you sit down with Ginger and AA to explain).

    The one thing I would say that I appreciate and respect about you Russ, is that you do question things, and you always back things up with research. As you know, my general opinion is that life is really about doing what makes you happy. So just be sure to surround yourself with people you love and take the time to sit back and relax once and a while. Oh and don’t forget your bros…viva la firestation reunion 07!

    - Rett (Jun 27, 2007)

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